So this year, I was going to be a mega-blogger, make a ton of videos for my Youtube channel (www.youtube.com/beautybylindsayc) and dominate in my own world every day! And I started out fairly strong...but life totally took control.
We lost my stepdad unexpectedly right before last Christmas, and I took a lot of time to help my mom navigate her new landscape of loss. My beloved chocolate Lab/Rottweiler mix, Lila Jane, became gravely ill, and I took care of her until she passed at the end of March. I've been trying my best to make our new house a loving and joyful home each day I get to wake up, and the rest was pretty much laundry. For real, we have enough laundry for a family of 13.
I found myself feeling really guilty for ignoring my blogs and YT channel, like I was letting some huge legion of fans down...I do have a few followers, to whom I am always grateful for their support...but really I knew I was allowing myself to let go of those little things that I really found joy in, outside of my children and family. But I readily pushed those things aside so I could take care of my loved ones. And I will never feel guilty about that.
I want to keep writing, but writing for real can be a painful journey. Life will always get in the way but I love writing about it, nonetheless. So I hope you will still check in and see what I've been up to. I can't promise new and exciting beauty or life threads every day, or even every week, but I don't plan on giving this up.
Thank you! Enjoy the holidays with your loved ones! See you in the New Year!